So my 3 year anniversary with CFTC was slightly anti-climactic, although I did put in a great WOD in honor of it! I love my gym. It probably makes the top 5 all-time favorite things in my life. If I had to actually list those things, I’d have a difficult time, but here; let’s try it anyway.

5 All Time Favorite Things in My Life (not in any particular order)
CrossFit Total Control
Dali Decals
My Family (dogs, Dave, Mom, sisters, etc, etc, etc)

omg… there’s a 12 way tie for the rest of the items.. My car, my phone, my computer, my baby blanket, my dad’s gun and knife collection, etc!

But anyway, you get the idea, so we’ll just go with CFTC is in my Top 3 All Time Favorite Things, for sure! Screw top 5.

This year has been an interesting one, as always. The day to day aspect seems rather boring, but as a whole, there are highs and lows, fun things and horrible things, great days and bad days, lots of happy, lots of sad and depressed, lots of confused, lots of feeling not so great, or hot, or amazing. I always try to be positive, and apparently it shows, because people walk up to me and compliment how positive I always am… to which I want to reply “You have no fucking idea.”

but I don’t. I’m just like “oh ha yeah thanks! Fake it til you make it!” (big smile)

My amino acid experimentation, my strengths, my slacking off at the gym, buying a new house and then moving into it, dealing with myself, my head, my thoughts, my emotions. What do I really want? Is this really what I want to do? Why do I always hurt? Why can’t I get better? Why can’t I just eat less? Then I eat less, then I feel amazing, then I’m like, oh yeah time for some fried chicken to celebrate! {resume endless cycle}

But. I’m happy, for the most part. I’m still here. I’m still alive. I’m still working out. I still show up with a smile. I still love what I do, and I will keep going back for more. I hope I can keep going til the day I die. CrossFit has changed my life, and I will say it again and again.

I am so thankful for my CFTC Family. These people make up the most amazing support team and community. I am so glad I met Russ when I did, that I walked into that gym after losing my first gym (I left) and I was challenged from Day 1.

My amazing Gym representation at Rep Your Box 4. CrossFit Total Control.

What do I want moving forward? I want more real positivity. I want real self-love, I want real self-confidence. I want real happiness and contentment with myself. I want to be okay with me at all times. I want to be more accepting of myself, of my body, my strengths and weaknesses. I want to show up more and face challenges head on. I want to tackle my problems instead of shying away from them. I want the rest of my 34th year to be fucking awesome, because I said so. 

Coffee Cheers