I wrote this two days ago.. but then didn’t post it. So here it is.
I feel like a slacker, but then I look at how busy I’ve been, and how drained I’ve been, and then I wonder what’s missing. I’ll get moody, sad, grumpy, whatever, but.. honestly, it’s probably because I haven’t been working out as much. Let me rephrase.. I haven’t been going to CrossFit as much, which in turn, means I don’t take my BCAAs as much, or my Magnesium or Taurine, which in turn elevates my stress levels, and makes me feel like shit, cause I’m sore, and.. boom. Bad downward spiral.
I’ve been going to yoga, but it’s not nearly the same thing. I sweat more in yoga than I do at CF, but.. it doesn’t give me the same workout. I still leave red-faced, exhausted, sweating, feeling amazing, but it’s an emotional experience too with yoga. There are days that I’ll break down and cry in half pigeon (why is it always half pigeon that I cry?) And other days where I’m just numb. Numb to the process, the experience.
Some days I know will be crying days, just like when I see rope climbs at CF and I’m having one of those days. Today of course (May 5th) we have wall walks. Those are crying triggers for me. Fuck wall walks! Seriously, I’m going to do push ups instead. I’ll get more out of it, and I’ll feel better about myself. There.
(and I did push ups, btw. Post coming soon.)